Dream Catcher

Had fever Friday all the way to yesterday, the same day I started work and almost did not go to work but went anyway cos cannot afford to give bad impression. Anyhoo, it was bad. It’s been a while since I’ve had fever and such. It doesn’t help that the sore throat, flu and cough complicate my breathing and made my asthma so much worst. A walk to the bathroom made me pant as if I ran a mile or something and sweat started to break out from the skin everywhere. You want to know how it feels? Try holding your breath under water until you can no longer take it but wait for a few more seconds and then get up and you’ll know how it feels to breathe as if air is running out BUT imagine the air sucked in could not be absorbed by the lungs and all you can do is run to the meds for help. The high fever was horrible as well. Wrapped myself in 2 layer of clothes, long pants and blanket, popped in two panadol and try to sweat it all out. Wish I was home where I could be well taken care of without worrying bout such things. Bah!

Anyhoo, worshiped anyway today; with only one guitarist and a pianist and did so much mistakes! I could feel my face go red throughout! Gah! Surrendering to God; I did my best! I truly did! Am glad some people were ministered anyway! God is good!

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My new fav song! Thanks to Diana! Hee!

Part of the lyrics

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I’m
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

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P/S sometimes I don’t understand why people are not afraid to do it but go all mad when someone else found out about it. Seriously. What’s the catch?

One word.

Own up.

On a lighter note, I think now I know who are those who are real and not. It’s good to know.

]]> http://carissasammy.com/life/the-only-exception/feed/ 2 http://carissasammy.com/life/reasons/ http://carissasammy.com/life/reasons/#comments Sun, 04 Oct 2009 04:26:15 +0000 Carissa Sammy http://carissasammy.com/?p=324 Why never to get sick if you’re not at home:

1. You have to get up and get your own medicine and water.

2. When there is no food, there is no food.

3. When it’s cold, you have to turn off the fan on your on and find a sweater to put it on yourself.

4. You have no idea whatsoever whether you are having high fever or not; hands are cold 24/7 and head feels hot all the time.

5. There is no yummy porridge by the mummy.

6. You cannot cry because no one would hear you in that room of yours.

7. There is just no food; no food = cannot eat medicine cause stomach will be painful.

8. When you sweat after taking your meds, daddy’s not there to wipe your sweat off.

9. Kakak’s not there to refill your water too.

10. There is no yummy sweet lying around for you to eat after taking meds in case wana vomit.

11. When cannot breathe at night, have to look for own inhaler.

12. There’s no one to tuck in blanket for you when it gets colder at night.

13. No need to make manja voices because sisters are not there to hear them and sayang you.

14. You just have to get up and do everything on your own.

It’s no fun being sick. Slept more than 12 hours drugged in medicine. Had to walk out of the house to get/buy my own food so can eat medicine. Have to buy my own water too. It’s cold but my body feels hot.

And that is why I only fall really sick when I’m at home; but this time I have no choice at all. Bah!

Can you send my mommy and daddy here pretty please?