Carissa Sammy

What I truly need sometimes is just a simple girls day out. It was fantabulous. We talked and shared about life, our hopes and dreams, guys love and relationship and had many laughs over good food, amazing company, oh and of course, board games!

“A friend is one who strengthens you with prayers, blesses you with love and encourages you with hope.”

Last Saturday, I had Northern Indian food at Pastor Tim’s place with the leadership team just sharing about lives and updating on testimonies and church plans.

Pastor Tim also shared about leaders reaching a point of life as a Christian leader where we will feel less passionate, tired and most distressing of all would be feeling stagnant. Honestly, I do feel more tired than I have felt for a long time and as compared to when I rededicated my life, I am definitely less passionate; not at all burning with the intense fire I used to have.

He then shared that when these happens, there are four key reasons to why one feels as such.

There are four reasons for Stagnation:

1. Lack of Devotion (thus making one weary)

Many people usually fall under this category. This is where people lack of doing devotions. It really is as simple as that. Sometimes we take for granted and not do devotion, sometimes we lose focus and are not discipline in doing them. I remembered my struggles when I first rededicated my life to God. I simply could not sit down and do my devotions every single day. It was truly difficult for me. I only manage to truly commit when I see the priority of God in my life and that I should be able to spend some time with Him everyday instead of wasting my time turning on the internet or reading a good book. Since that day, doing devotions is the time of the day I truly enjoy because that is when He will tell me what I needed to hear and I am aware that there is a true relationship between me and Him. It is also when my empty cup will be replenished again.

2. Lack of Compassion

Before Pastor Tim told us about these four reasons; I have already diagnosed myself in this category. I feel that I have dealt with so many different people; some with difficult attitude problem which drives me insane while others are just plain amazing and easy to love, and that I am running out of love for people. This is a very dangerous diagnosis I must say because when you stop loving people, you just stop seeing the reason of doing what you do because you just don’t love anymore. In fact, before Saturday, I have already kept loving people as one my biggest priority in my prayer list. The need to love is immeasurable. It is what keeps us going when people get difficult. It is what fills Jesus’ heart every single time before a miracle happens. Yes, every single time! So pray with me as I keep loving people as I go through this journey of my ministry.

3. God’s calling

Yes, this is also substantially vital in doing what you do. When you are doing God’s calling, you tend to not feel tired or weary. There will be passion and zeal doing what you do. So if you’re not sure what God’s calling is for you, pray about it. Try different ministry to see which one ignites the fire in you. Mine would be Campus Ministry for now because I love to see young people stand up for God, see young people burn so passionately for Him. That itself keeps me going on. Oh and of course worship ministry. I love singing. I truly do. But I love singing for Him even more.

4. Creativity

This I am not particularly sure or know how I can fit into this category. You see, me and creativity, we are like strangers meeting for the first time; not exactly best of friends! But creativity in doing what we do actually help grows through stagnation. It’s like giving a breath of fresh air!

What I learnt most importantly on that very day would be the fact that every single leader goes through stagnation and I am absolutely relieved knowing that I am not alone in this boat! It helps knowing that you are not alone and that other people goes through it too. So if you are right now in the stage of stagnation; let me know so I can pray with you and perhaps you can too evaluate what is your reason for stagnation. Remember, you are NOT alone!

Blessed weak ahead!

First Off: Chae’s Graduation!

I flew back to Kuching for the weekend supposedly for the elder sister’s graduation only finding out later that I had a whole week off due to Raya break and Mum was so nice to change my flight date in time for Raya Barbeque and a whole entire week of home! I heart mummy so so much!

Dearest Chae,

Congrats! I can’t believe that you graduated already! Time flies so quickly! I vividly remember the times when we were merely little girls riding on my green bike and your pink one, hugging each other when thunders comes, screaming at one another till we both cry and make up, always matching in all our clothes what with you being only a year older than me, you always calming me when I have fashion disaster, us trying to make things work when boys made things bad; crying together, laughing together, you teaching me so much in this life and now with the little sister in our team of sisterhood! I cannot believe life move on so fast! The next thing would be you getting married! OH MY GOODNESS! I’m joking! No pressure! Haahaa! I am so so proud of you for all your amazing achievement! You are indeed one heck of a woman! I love you so very much! *kissesalloveryourface*

Looking good!

With mummy and daddy the very proud parents!

Sisters!

Family

p/s i can’t believe you really thought we didn’t get you anything! In the end you had the most presents what with 3 huge flowers and 2 huge soft toys and the other small ones. So paiseh people keep staring at us! But so glad you kept smiling the entire time!

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Usually after class, the girls would go around for yummy lunch time. It really is good food at very affordable price!

Lunch at Jack’s Place:

Yummy Garlic Bread

Soup for Starter

Mine: Chicken in Peanut Sause and Spagetti – It’s good!

Fish Fillets and Spagetti – a friends’

Sorry forgot to take the picture of desert; which consists of Jelly with a hint of Coconut Milk and Nata D’ Coco.

GEB and me

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GEB’S 21st Birthday at Tony Roma’s:

Refillable Ice Tea

Chicken Soup and Biscuit for Starter

My Grilled Chicken with Fries and Salad

Friends’ Fish and Chips

Cake dipped in Vanilla IceCream, Fresh Cream and chocolate bits

DCWH and her happy food!

The food was in a very Huge Portion that I took so long to finish it! Okay, I lied. Didn’t manage to finish. But I had a reason; I was sick!

To My Overdearest Bee,

Thank you for being such an amazing friend, for all the fun times in college. You make life in Campus so much more enjoyable! And I am so glad our Hokkien is almost the same! Teehee! But most important of all is the fact that you love me so much and care a lot more! Thank you for always nagging advising me to rest more and for reminding me to take my medicine when I always forget. Though it’s such a small gesture, it touched me so much! I also am so touched also that you are so willing to share your problems and happiness with me. I call it sharing lives. I am so glad for you! Life without you will never be the same! I love you Bee! You are my best lou kung ever! Hope you love your present and Happy AWESOMEST 21st Birthday!

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Went for Breakfast on Thursday morning at 7.30am(so happening I know). We decided to go breakfast cos we had class straight from 9am till 4pm with only one hour break in between and we were confident that if we do not have food inside of us, we would actually die. Yes, die. Haahaahaa! My monster friends are as such. Seriously. So we would sacrifice sleep and eat breakfast instead.

We had the Famous Nasi Lemak in the Famous Shop in Uptown. I thought we were early! Apparently, there were lots of people earlier than me! ohmigoshed!

Monster DCWH so happy when she has food!

At 2 pm that day, we were in good enough condition to pose and take pretty pictures before class.

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That Thursday Night, The Housemate William decided to cook Spagetti for Feng’s house and our house. It was good! Men who cook are awesome!

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Update: I’ve been sick of late. Suffering with flu, cough, sore throat, on and off fever and asthma. It’s been more than a week really. Time to watch what I eat. Did grocery shopping also on Thursday night and cooked soup! Gonna try to make yummy porridge as well!

p/s Thanks 9lin for lending me your car for me to get my groceries! Your trust means tons to me.

Soup food: good for the tummy

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I am so overly paranoid. 21st birthday coming up and friends already have committee meeting(?!!?!) to plan and organize my birthday for me to have one to remember for the rest of my life! OH MY! I am so nervous my stomach hurts so bad! Please FRIENDS, I beg of you, be kind okay? I love you guys tons! ://

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For the first time in my life, I am quite nervous. Goodness.

Btw, Fishy, since u’ve been gone, there’s no one to kill the cockroaches and get rid of the lizards. I just had to call Feng over to kill cos Wills was at CC. So paiseh but so scared! I miss you tons. I do. :’(

Simplest gift:

Includes friendship

RWYS and GEB in the curve with me

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Quality Time:

My Yaki Udon from Sakae Sushi

RWYS’s lunch

Favourite must eat #1

Favourite must eat #2

Then we decided to catch a movie and since they left me already watched The Ugly Truth and we were very much intrigue with the storyline of this particular movie, we decided to take the risk and watch it. (I said take the risk because I do not watch such movies. Creepy scary sadistic horror movies are not my cup of tea)

GEB and me. Look at our horrified face. Okay, maybe not so horrified yet cos movie haven’t started. Lols!

Crazy Sadistic Friends who laughed throughout the movie. Cis!

Overall I survived and honestly, it was a good movie. I just don’t like the psychiatrist. Sue her ah!

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Sweet gestures that touches the heart.

Chocs from Phy. So sweet okie! Helped me when I am hungry or sad! Thanks Baby!

Pouch and love note from Junnie. Thank you dearest for making my week. I am reminded of why I do what I do. I love you.

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This is definitely a season of challenge for me. I have never felt this low in my life since I’ve received Him again. I am broken and I feel insecure half the time with the surroundings and happenings. I want to withdraw from friends, run away and go home. I want to hide in my room and wish that everything will turn out fine. I wondered what happen to the things I sow into. Where is my harvest? What about me? Lately I feel sad and emotional when people make fun of me. Oh, I should be used to it by now really, since people always have something to say and laugh about me but suddenly it’s not so funny anymore. Suddenly I wish they would stop picking on me. Suddenly I want to walk away and not care. But I cannot not care because I love them already. There is this sense and part of me that still loves. And so I smile and take it all in, when I should have let it all out.

I am in such a dire position I can only hope the midst will fade away and that I can see things more clearly again.

I am hanging on to that little faith I still have.

This is my confession so that you can all stand in prayer with me.

Please stand in prayers with me. That’s all I can ask of you.

Hello! Truth is I haven’t blog about a lot of things! I must mention a bit about my girlfriends coming to Kuching to play. Blog more later cos there are tons of pictures! Lols! This was in July.

When we played laser tag! So awesome!

Obligatory Picture in front of the cat!

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In Sept:

We celebrated SeaHai’s farewell in Puchong Shabu-Shabu where we got lost for a while and had our dinner only at 9pm plus plus. So hungry okay! But it was so worth it because dinner was awesome and the company was fabulous!

SeaHai and me!

In one long row. CAN U SEE THE BUFFET DINNER? and the your own personal steamboat in front of u! So fun!

The picture of the entire group of friends that came. I actually knew all of them from the Broga Leadership Camp! Lols!

Seahai, have fun in UK and be safe always!

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Then there was Hamster’s birthday!

In our favourite dinner place! Guess where?! Teehee!

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Then Sarah’s Farewell. I miss her already. :’(

In OUR favourite place. Teehee! My supergirls! Stephie is missing!! Rawr!

To my dearest Sarah, have fun in UK. I love you heaps! Remember to keep your faith in God close to your heart and may your passion for Him burn feverishly forever more! Hugs!

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Then our LG outing! Kite flying! So happyfying see kite fly so high!

Darryl and Mervin bought Ultraman Kite and so Rachel, being kiasu, ahem, bought Spiderman! LOLS!

Which eventually flew away because the great AhBee didn’t hold it tightly. Hahahha!

In Kepong for our desert. We had famous KuehTiaw, TomYam pan mee and Pan mee for dinner!

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Then there was Fishy’s farewell plus her 21st birthday bash! I haven’t gotten the pictures yet! SO be patient okie!

Us in Kuching.

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Then the BBQ Party for the boys.

TeckKuok, YuRen and VunBin

Where I was trashed like mad with cream, flour and water. :/ Thus is my life.

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Darling Philee,

Congratulations to my lovely on her convocation! You did it! Have fun in Aussie and the Kangaroos cos u soo deserve it! Love u so much baby! Huggies!

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Truth is, there were so much more that I did in September with all my friends leaving and meeting up with a few more.

So many happenings and yet I miss home. How could this be? Sigh!

Hope you are doing great wherever you may be!

P/S  There are tons of pics in FB. If you are not one of those who can see my pics then too bad. i don’t love you that’s why. Haahaa! I’m joking. Let me know so I can include you. Privacy issues. Teehee!