Carissa Sammy

Mummy and daddy’s always there!

Me Lovely sisters to play and laugh with!

The meet ups with high school friends! <3!

Mummy’s awesome cooking! But this one I helped baked for mother’s day! Teehee! Oh yes, an oven to bake in! :’)

Rainbows! I swear you see a rainbow every other day! It’s so beautiful! This one is captured when I was walking around my house garden. Hohoho!

Sundrops! I know you KL peeps love this! Believe it or not, Kuching is the place where they produce this amazing drink! And I love home cos I have these kinda drinks in my fridge always always always!

Oh yes, the lovely garden! So lovely to have a place to walk in after being so sick of sitting in the house! What’s more amazing is the flowers in the garden! why can’t I have mummy’s green hands?! sobs! So beautiful!

My piggy slippers! So cute can?!

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Anyhoo, these are some of the lovely things I love about being home. I haven even included the pictures of my lovely tv, aircond, bed, kampua mee, kolo mee(actually I only eat mee pok; which is the version of kolo mee with different noodles because the original noodles of kolo mee looks like brain i scared), sarawak laksa, sio bee, my steamed peanuts(I am so addicted to this!), bubur cha cha, the three layer teh si peng, the yam and chicken puff(I seriously dislike yam but for this pie, it’s just awesome I also dunno why?!), butter bun(I have NO IDEA why KL don’t sell any of these! Only have potato bun! Cis!), my trampoline(actually only write this cos I wrote so much food so sinful so must put trampoline to show I also got exercise! Is lies! ), my car!(can go anywhere! but sad to say it’s not like I know all the roads also. Malu!), Kakak!(cos don’t need to do any housework! ai lub her ) and so on.

WHY OH WHY AGAIN SO MANY FOOD! I AM SO OBSESS WITH FOOD! -_-!! I PRAY TO BE OBSESS WITH EXERCISE CAN?! *KNOCKS HEAD WITH FOOD THEN EATS IT HOHOHO!*

I just realized as I live through everyday, that sometimes, a small action or word makes a whole huge difference. I mean it’s not like I never noticed before but recently, I’ve just noticed things in a new different perspective okay maybe because I’m on hols and have tons of free time on my hands and I like it.

I see how the little kid helps out his parents at the Kopi Tiam(coffee shop) and not complain about having to help out and comparing his life with other kids who gets to stay home and play playstation.

The old grandmother who walks her grandchild to tuition and waits patiently just because both parents are busy working and yet despite having difficulties walking; does so happily and smiling away listening to the kid’s story of the day.

The aunty at the small shop-house who charge RM1 less just because.

Hannah; who suddenly and randomly told me I look prettier and prettier each day made me blush but more than that, touched deep inside with warm cozy feeling.

9lin who keeps blessing with foodS, awesome company and lots of laughter.

A lady, staying over in another city with a her bestfriend to give her support with the passing of her dad.

Baby Kristen, who stops playing so suddenly and came up to me, puts her head on my lap to show her way of love.

A simple email just to check up and keep in touch.

A hug to show that there will always be someone there.

The old toothless man who gave the utmost genuine smile ever.

And God, who gave His one and only one to die for our sins because of His undying love.

Oh, aren’t these amazing? Who would have thought that we live in a world where there is still so much love going around though in small simple form being a blessing in disguise? These small sparks helps me go on with life with a smile on my face. I hope you too, by reading this can choose to do a little something today and keep the love going round. Then tell me, if you did, so I can picture it in my head and smile along with you.

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Here’s a song I hope will bless you

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He’s the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, “Dear God won’t you please
Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would’ve stayed
And she says…

Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
“I know you’ve murdered and I know you’ve lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you’ll listen, I’ll tell you that I…”

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew

I’ve been back for a few days. Short few days and met a few people. I can truly say, the most important thing in my life is definitely God, then family then friends. Oh yes it’s true. I feel so fulfilled every single time I go out with people I cherish and have real life conversation. Not just surface talk but really talks that makes you think twice about life and how people deal with them. Then my heart will be filled with so much joy I feel like it’s gonna burst! I truly believe in friendship. Friendship that will truly last forever. Truth to be told, I didn’t believe that before. I mean how can people be the same after years right? And surely when people change the friendship would to. But I was wrong, oh so so wrong. What matters most is giving one space to breathe and be there no matter what happens. Then next is the giving; the giving of everything you have; the love, the trust, the joy. Also, there must be no ego. No competition. Being friends is not about who’s better than who, and who wins what. It’s about caring for what the person has to say and support them without judgment. Yes, it’s true sometimes the lifestyle ain’t the same anymore and our values too but that doesn’t mean we cannot be friends anymore. It means we then stop and see life the way the other party does and respect each other enough to not judge and love all the same. I am blessed because I have so many people in my life whom I call true friends, who share their lives with me and love me despite my imperfections. I am glad to say that I believe in friendship forever after and although you don’t, it’s okay, because know that I will be there playing my part in loving and caring for you no matter the age or the circumstances. Also, this year will be the year I want to meet everyone whom our path crossed before or people whom I will and yet to meet. And perhaps, we can then talk about life and how it changes each and everyone of us, molding us to be the person we are today. Let’s then laugh about our stupidity,cry over our mistakes and learn from one another; let’s cherish the memories we had and capture the new ones we are to make into beautiful pictures that we can keep in our treasure box and look back and smile for we know that it was all real. Let’s believe in these beautiful thing God created and share it with as many people as we can; earnestly, sincerely and lovingly.

I was home for a whole entire month for exams hence the silent blog. Teehee! Anyhoo, latest update:

• Got my hair done again; this time straighten cos I’m planning to keep it real long. Let’s see how that will turn out since it’s been so hot I am so very tempted to chop it all off! I MIGHT JUST DYE IT ALL RED. STILL THINKING!
• Am planning to move to Brickfields so I’m in the midst of looking for a place to stay and getting use to the transition bit. Feels a bit sad cos I am so used to living here and it’s so cozy and so near to church! And not forgetting the people here. Sigh! But it’s time to move on… New Directions which move on to…
• I am currently praying for peace in transitioning and more open doors for this new season and I am fairly excited in some ways.
• Worship in church is also moving in new directions so I am also praying for integration once I move to Brickfields so that everything will fall into place.
• Love life is still the same but I have no worries though family and high school friends are already thinking to match me up with some guys. -_-!! No stress lah. When the right man comes along, he’ll come along just fine.
• My cousin from mum’s side just got married. Congrats ah jing koko(though I doubt he reads this). It was really a fun time reuniting with cousins and such. AND the little sister caught the bouquet! Guess we know who’ll be marrying first in the family! Teehee!
• Oh I’ll be here in KL for a month plus and I am super free so do look for me to catch up okie dokie?
• I am excited cos me elder sister is coming end of the month again despite the fact that my whole family was just here last whole week! Pictures will be in Facebook!
• Oh yes, I need LOTSA BOXES so I can pack all my crazy lots of stuff into them. Donate me some if you’re reading this! Thank you very much!
• I am no longer going to Bangkok in July; not with the crazy shooting and stuff! Aunt said shops are all close so no point and mummy said no no no. It seriously means no. Sigh! Now planning to go somewhere else. Any ideas?
• I can’t wait for the awesome buddies to come back for hols this coming 3 months cos that means catching up and fun!
• Oh yes, I truly had such an amazing time back home though I was mostly tucked away inside the house studying but the family was so lovely; I get to celebrate chae chae’s 23rd bday with her, mother’s day, ate mum’s awesome cooking and catching up with the best friends! It is so good to be able to talk about everything and anything to the people who knows me inside out ever since I was young!

Anyhoo, that’s it so far. It’s late. omg! 12.08 am! Oh yes, since I’ve been back, my sleeping patterns changed. I now sleep latest 12 am; usually 10pm and wakes up by 7.30am. So goodnight people! More updates and pics soon!

P/S I’ve got new camera! Teehee! Is love!

Happy happy birthday daddy! Another year older but you’re all so wise already so it really makes no difference how old you ever get! Teehee!

Today as I spoke to you on the phone, I am reminded of how amazing you are in so many ways.

Daddy and mummy

How very simple of you to always appreciate all the small things in life that when mummy wants to bring you out for lunch date, all you wanted is a simple kolo mee bowl; knowing that what really matters to you is not where mummy brings you, but the fact that you are there with her. Though in the end you guys end up somewhere else! Hee!

daddy acting funny!

And how humble and full of selflessness that when I ask if you’re happy, the first thing that you say is that if all of your children is happy, you are happy too.

I was astounded, speechless. Daddy, you have a huge heart of gold!

Daddy, me and chae chae

And how approachable you are that I can sit there in the library whispering and giggling on the phone talking to you without any restrain knowing that you love me for who I really am and that I can talk to you about everything and anything; and you really listen. Thank you daddy for listening to me bicker about life and love me still.

My handsome daddy!

What touches me so much more is that you love God and how when we talk, you will tell me that God is Almighty and He has a great plan and that you trust Him. When I see you trust God so much, I know I do too. What you believe would be what I would believe. And I know this God is real.

Daddy and jessica

Most important of all however, I will always remember, is that at the beginning of this year, when I lie so helplessly on my bed, begging for my lungs to breathe with tears flowing endlessly and almost giving up life once again; daddy, you held me close to you, carried me in your arms, let me cry and tell me that I can. When you said I can, I truly believe with all my heart and soul that I truly can. But more than that, daddy, at that very moment, I know that God has given me the greatest blessing of all; you.

Thank you daddy for everything. Words cannot tell you how much I love you. I really really love you!

I’m sorry I can’t be there for your celebration tomorrow night; but I know all of you will have so much fun karaoke-ing! I wish I am there but it’s okay! We’ll do it again when I come back?

Like I said on the phone daddy; you must live a long long life okay? Cos I still need you so much in my life! And for mah future man, you have to pray harder so that you can walk me down that aisle! Teehee! Pray that he’ll be like you!

Happy happy birthday daddy! You are the bestest in the whole wide world! And I am so glad that no matter how old I grow, I can manja with you and lie on your lap while watching tv, disturb and bite you and you’ll not get annoyed and most important of all, I can share my life with you and you’ll truly care.

You are the ultimate dad and I am glad you are mine.

With love from you second daughter,

YingYing