Carissa Sammy

Last Saturday, I had Northern Indian food at Pastor Tim’s place with the leadership team just sharing about lives and updating on testimonies and church plans.

Pastor Tim also shared about leaders reaching a point of life as a Christian leader where we will feel less passionate, tired and most distressing of all would be feeling stagnant. Honestly, I do feel more tired than I have felt for a long time and as compared to when I rededicated my life, I am definitely less passionate; not at all burning with the intense fire I used to have.

He then shared that when these happens, there are four key reasons to why one feels as such.

There are four reasons for Stagnation:

1. Lack of Devotion (thus making one weary)

Many people usually fall under this category. This is where people lack of doing devotions. It really is as simple as that. Sometimes we take for granted and not do devotion, sometimes we lose focus and are not discipline in doing them. I remembered my struggles when I first rededicated my life to God. I simply could not sit down and do my devotions every single day. It was truly difficult for me. I only manage to truly commit when I see the priority of God in my life and that I should be able to spend some time with Him everyday instead of wasting my time turning on the internet or reading a good book. Since that day, doing devotions is the time of the day I truly enjoy because that is when He will tell me what I needed to hear and I am aware that there is a true relationship between me and Him. It is also when my empty cup will be replenished again.

2. Lack of Compassion

Before Pastor Tim told us about these four reasons; I have already diagnosed myself in this category. I feel that I have dealt with so many different people; some with difficult attitude problem which drives me insane while others are just plain amazing and easy to love, and that I am running out of love for people. This is a very dangerous diagnosis I must say because when you stop loving people, you just stop seeing the reason of doing what you do because you just don’t love anymore. In fact, before Saturday, I have already kept loving people as one my biggest priority in my prayer list. The need to love is immeasurable. It is what keeps us going when people get difficult. It is what fills Jesus’ heart every single time before a miracle happens. Yes, every single time! So pray with me as I keep loving people as I go through this journey of my ministry.

3. God’s calling

Yes, this is also substantially vital in doing what you do. When you are doing God’s calling, you tend to not feel tired or weary. There will be passion and zeal doing what you do. So if you’re not sure what God’s calling is for you, pray about it. Try different ministry to see which one ignites the fire in you. Mine would be Campus Ministry for now because I love to see young people stand up for God, see young people burn so passionately for Him. That itself keeps me going on. Oh and of course worship ministry. I love singing. I truly do. But I love singing for Him even more.

4. Creativity

This I am not particularly sure or know how I can fit into this category. You see, me and creativity, we are like strangers meeting for the first time; not exactly best of friends! But creativity in doing what we do actually help grows through stagnation. It’s like giving a breath of fresh air!

What I learnt most importantly on that very day would be the fact that every single leader goes through stagnation and I am absolutely relieved knowing that I am not alone in this boat! It helps knowing that you are not alone and that other people goes through it too. So if you are right now in the stage of stagnation; let me know so I can pray with you and perhaps you can too evaluate what is your reason for stagnation. Remember, you are NOT alone!

Blessed weak ahead!

To dearest Rachel,

Vanity Chew! Teehee! <3

Us! (p/s ur turn to cut bangs baby! hahaha!)

The curve

My crazy baby! Teehee!

Our ladylike picture!

Happy 22nd birthday! I truly want to thank you being such a great friend to me. For those times you stood by me and told me truth when I needed to hear it most, for many more times you sat and listened to me; those times of joy and many more of tears. I am so blessed to have you as my friend and sister who truly loves me for who I am. Thank you also for holding my hand and having my back! I am forever thankful baby! I am so very proud of your amazing growth in every area of your life especially your spiritual growth! Thank you for taking the baton and serving together for Him! I always have so much fun with you around! Know that I have your back too and that I love you a whole lot! Always have; always will! Hope you had one of the most amazing birthdays this year! Muaks!

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To dearest JinChieh,

Stole from ur facebook! Heehee!

In genting!

Us!

I just want to take this time to thank you for being apart of KDU lifegroup and a huge part of our spiritual family! I have always enjoyed your presence and your humor(ahem!) and I am evermore so proud of you for your growth in maturity and spiritually! Do continue to shine and burn passionately for Him! You are doing awesome! Thank you also for partnering together and for your utmost genuine friendship! You are the best! Happy happy 19th birthday! Hope you had an amazing one as well! Teehee! Hugs!

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Don’t you just LOVE birthdays? Teehee!

For some people, money.

Others; Love.

Many(like me!) – IceCream!!

Perhaps maybe, being free in the water.

Or reading. <3

Some; lying under the sun.

Or maybe; exercising! (hahahaaa! )

For me; It’s really friends who are there; just the few of us, making some effort to spend quality time together! Now, that’s really happiness!

<3 <3 <3

Thank you friend for making the effort. I am blessed.

Happy Happy New Year 2010!

It’s been ages since I’ve blogged and there’s only one reason why. I forgot the site where I could log into my blog. -_-!! I know!! Teehee! But I saved my site in my laptop and the computer at home doesn’t have the saved site.

Anyhoo, year 2009 has been a tough year with many many many trials coming along my way and a few times I’ve been so weak that I’ve almost give in to the frailty and give up.

Still, I am thankful for the family; my family who never fail to catch me when I fall, to encourage and to love me despite my imperfection. I am evermore grateful to have such amazing parents who holds my hand and help carry me when I can no longer stand on my own. And sisters. Who means the world to me.

Friends; those real ones who calls and check up on me. Those who are always there who actually listens and cares. The ones who accepts me; flaws and all. The one who sees strength and courage in me when I myself fail to see them. The ones I call angels I never thought I deserve to have.

Failures; my biggest enemy yet year 2009 proves that I was so much associated to it that I no longer fear them. Rising above helps me build character and stand on my two little feet(literally). I am tired and struggling but the difference is that I have hope and I have Him.

God; my strength, my hope, my life. The reason I am here today. I am grateful that He was there in every chapter of my life and He never walked away though I have learn to accept that I may never come to understand the reason why bad things happen to good people. He still stands eternally strong in my life; the past, the present, the future.

2009: The resolution to be more childlike. Done done done. Can’t believe another passed so quickly but childlikeness; believing in things the Father tells me. I do.

2010: New resolution. To rise above every situation, keeping Joy in my heart.

Philippians 4: 4 – 8:

⁴Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

⁸Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

May u have an amazing year ahead of you filled with much blessings. joy and love!