Carissa Sammy

My new fav song. So sad. :’))

hu die zha ji ci yan jing
cai xue hui fei xing
ye kong sa man le xing xing
dan ji ke hui luo di
wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji
hen kao jing hai ting jian hu xi
dui bu qi wo que mei zhuo jin ni

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
ni de lei di xiang qin peng da yu sui le man di
zai xin li qing xi
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
duo de shi ni bu zhi de shi

hu die zha ji ci yan jing
cai xue hui fei xing
ye kong sa man le xing xing
dan ji ke hui luo di
wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji
hen kao jing hai ting jian hu xi
dui bu qi wo que mei zhuo jin ni

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
ni de lei di xiang qin peng da yu sui le man di
zai xin li qing xi
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
duo de shi ni bu zhi de shi

wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
ni de lei di xiang qin peng da yu sui le man di
zai xin li qing xi
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
duo de shi ni bu zhi de shi

is difficult.

You can never understand why something happened or why someone is the way they are and yet we always always try to understand.

We try, oh yes we do!

What if this time you don’t need to understand anything and let go?

What if you learn to just accept and trust blindly?

Can you do that? Ever?

Can you stop thinking about what you want or what you feel and what makes you happy and instead think of what He wants and how to please Him?

Can you forget about yourself for once and let Him be your main priority?

When you sing of loving Him more than anything; do you mean it? Or are you just singing it out loud?

Can you live your life like He’s number one instead of you?

Would you live like that?

Truth?!

It’s hard and it seems impossible but! I am sick of trying to understand so I’m giving Him the lead to my life!

And guess what?

Peace.

More?

Galatians 5:22-23

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

Fruit if the spirit becomes something I’ve learnt to embrace and appreciate in my life.

And guess what?

I am okay because I know He’s in me.

I mean seriously; how else do you think I’ve come to receive the fruits of the spirit? Through Him of course!

Honest truth; but can you handle it?

I’ve been back for a few days. Short few days and met a few people. I can truly say, the most important thing in my life is definitely God, then family then friends. Oh yes it’s true. I feel so fulfilled every single time I go out with people I cherish and have real life conversation. Not just surface talk but really talks that makes you think twice about life and how people deal with them. Then my heart will be filled with so much joy I feel like it’s gonna burst! I truly believe in friendship. Friendship that will truly last forever. Truth to be told, I didn’t believe that before. I mean how can people be the same after years right? And surely when people change the friendship would to. But I was wrong, oh so so wrong. What matters most is giving one space to breathe and be there no matter what happens. Then next is the giving; the giving of everything you have; the love, the trust, the joy. Also, there must be no ego. No competition. Being friends is not about who’s better than who, and who wins what. It’s about caring for what the person has to say and support them without judgment. Yes, it’s true sometimes the lifestyle ain’t the same anymore and our values too but that doesn’t mean we cannot be friends anymore. It means we then stop and see life the way the other party does and respect each other enough to not judge and love all the same. I am blessed because I have so many people in my life whom I call true friends, who share their lives with me and love me despite my imperfections. I am glad to say that I believe in friendship forever after and although you don’t, it’s okay, because know that I will be there playing my part in loving and caring for you no matter the age or the circumstances. Also, this year will be the year I want to meet everyone whom our path crossed before or people whom I will and yet to meet. And perhaps, we can then talk about life and how it changes each and everyone of us, molding us to be the person we are today. Let’s then laugh about our stupidity,cry over our mistakes and learn from one another; let’s cherish the memories we had and capture the new ones we are to make into beautiful pictures that we can keep in our treasure box and look back and smile for we know that it was all real. Let’s believe in these beautiful thing God created and share it with as many people as we can; earnestly, sincerely and lovingly.

It’s been too long since I’ve posted… One thing about being home is the reminder of the life I used to have. And the many ifs that I thought long and hard; wasted so much time just thinking and finally came to a realization that everything that happened cannot change and no amount of thinking can ever alter the past.

I have been at a few low points and the thoughts alone killed me. Oh how thoughts can influence so much.

Love.

I am always at the losing end. Just because.

Life.

Being here makes me grateful.

Earth.

A place where I will learn to love and lost.

Heaven.

Where I want to be; to get rid of everything that ever goes wrong.

Trials. Hardships.

To build the person I am going to be.

Ego.

The first thing I’ve got to get rid of.

Love.

I am at the front line.

Smiles.

On my face to tell the world that everything is going to be okay.

Faith.

Still burns deep inside me.

Anyone still reads this? I wonder.