Carissa Sammy

What with all the many dramas happening in life and the crazy amount of gigantic waves, my sister came at a perfect timing and we went to Sheraton Hotel for a break away from everyone and everything that wasn’t positive! Teehee!

During the stay in Sheraton, as if by God’s perfect timing, I met Nick Vujicic who were in Malaysia at the same time to give this motivational talk. We were by the pool(and I can’t get into the pool cos of stuffs) and so I was sun bathing(lies.i don’t do sunbathing what with being so dark already! -_-!!) and lying peacefully on the chair/bed when he came and spoke to us.

At first I was just so impressed because he was walking and trying the pool water(with what he calls his drumstick! ) and thereafter went for a swim! And all that without limbs okay!

Then when he spoke to me I was pretty much so impressed I was kinda speechless. I maybe oklah fine, was stammering a little bit cos so nervous! And I kinda remembered him from watching youtube somewhere long time ago. And so fail cos I told him that! -_-!! He was so humble to come and speak so nicely and I think he knew I was kinda shy! Haahaa! It’s true okay! So shy! But he was just so kind and we took photos with him!

Okay, maybe some of you don’t know who he is but here’s a video you must watch of his life testimony.

Anyway, after that I went to google about him somemore to refresh my memory of him and it was so amazing that I literally cried watching some of his videos. His motto? Attitude is Altitude! So inspiring and totally what I needed to hear at this point of my life!

I believe that God places the perfect people in your midst so you can understand life better. It’s like a little reminder of Him watching over us. I am so glad! Who would have thought that I would stumble upon this great disciple of Christ just when I needed an escape from life? Well, God did.

Do you trust in me? I would say yes God, I do. I think after that, Imma just have faith and trust with my whole heart.

Never give up. Not even if you’ve fallen a thousand and one times. I’m holding on to that. It’s carved deeply in my heart.

Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)

³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

because even as life is so uncertain, at least I have my family who always have my back! Who supports me and loves me for all that I am.

because I have real friends who noticed that I am not okay, choose to take some time off their schedule just to talk to me and speak so much words of encouragement.

because there are still testimony out there about life changes which inspire me so much I am speechless.

because when some doors closes, the other; open.

because I have Him and I know that He has a great plan for me.

I am thankful.

Chae is coming today! Tonight! I cannot wait! Is love!

Blessed day to you. And if you ever feel sad or broken, I am here. Always.

Mummy and daddy’s always there!

Me Lovely sisters to play and laugh with!

The meet ups with high school friends! <3!

Mummy’s awesome cooking! But this one I helped baked for mother’s day! Teehee! Oh yes, an oven to bake in! :’)

Rainbows! I swear you see a rainbow every other day! It’s so beautiful! This one is captured when I was walking around my house garden. Hohoho!

Sundrops! I know you KL peeps love this! Believe it or not, Kuching is the place where they produce this amazing drink! And I love home cos I have these kinda drinks in my fridge always always always!

Oh yes, the lovely garden! So lovely to have a place to walk in after being so sick of sitting in the house! What’s more amazing is the flowers in the garden! why can’t I have mummy’s green hands?! sobs! So beautiful!

My piggy slippers! So cute can?!

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Anyhoo, these are some of the lovely things I love about being home. I haven even included the pictures of my lovely tv, aircond, bed, kampua mee, kolo mee(actually I only eat mee pok; which is the version of kolo mee with different noodles because the original noodles of kolo mee looks like brain i scared), sarawak laksa, sio bee, my steamed peanuts(I am so addicted to this!), bubur cha cha, the three layer teh si peng, the yam and chicken puff(I seriously dislike yam but for this pie, it’s just awesome I also dunno why?!), butter bun(I have NO IDEA why KL don’t sell any of these! Only have potato bun! Cis!), my trampoline(actually only write this cos I wrote so much food so sinful so must put trampoline to show I also got exercise! Is lies! ), my car!(can go anywhere! but sad to say it’s not like I know all the roads also. Malu!), Kakak!(cos don’t need to do any housework! ai lub her ) and so on.

WHY OH WHY AGAIN SO MANY FOOD! I AM SO OBSESS WITH FOOD! -_-!! I PRAY TO BE OBSESS WITH EXERCISE CAN?! *KNOCKS HEAD WITH FOOD THEN EATS IT HOHOHO!*

Happy happy birthday daddy! Another year older but you’re all so wise already so it really makes no difference how old you ever get! Teehee!

Today as I spoke to you on the phone, I am reminded of how amazing you are in so many ways.

Daddy and mummy

How very simple of you to always appreciate all the small things in life that when mummy wants to bring you out for lunch date, all you wanted is a simple kolo mee bowl; knowing that what really matters to you is not where mummy brings you, but the fact that you are there with her. Though in the end you guys end up somewhere else! Hee!

daddy acting funny!

And how humble and full of selflessness that when I ask if you’re happy, the first thing that you say is that if all of your children is happy, you are happy too.

I was astounded, speechless. Daddy, you have a huge heart of gold!

Daddy, me and chae chae

And how approachable you are that I can sit there in the library whispering and giggling on the phone talking to you without any restrain knowing that you love me for who I really am and that I can talk to you about everything and anything; and you really listen. Thank you daddy for listening to me bicker about life and love me still.

My handsome daddy!

What touches me so much more is that you love God and how when we talk, you will tell me that God is Almighty and He has a great plan and that you trust Him. When I see you trust God so much, I know I do too. What you believe would be what I would believe. And I know this God is real.

Daddy and jessica

Most important of all however, I will always remember, is that at the beginning of this year, when I lie so helplessly on my bed, begging for my lungs to breathe with tears flowing endlessly and almost giving up life once again; daddy, you held me close to you, carried me in your arms, let me cry and tell me that I can. When you said I can, I truly believe with all my heart and soul that I truly can. But more than that, daddy, at that very moment, I know that God has given me the greatest blessing of all; you.

Thank you daddy for everything. Words cannot tell you how much I love you. I really really love you!

I’m sorry I can’t be there for your celebration tomorrow night; but I know all of you will have so much fun karaoke-ing! I wish I am there but it’s okay! We’ll do it again when I come back?

Like I said on the phone daddy; you must live a long long life okay? Cos I still need you so much in my life! And for mah future man, you have to pray harder so that you can walk me down that aisle! Teehee! Pray that he’ll be like you!

Happy happy birthday daddy! You are the bestest in the whole wide world! And I am so glad that no matter how old I grow, I can manja with you and lie on your lap while watching tv, disturb and bite you and you’ll not get annoyed and most important of all, I can share my life with you and you’ll truly care.

You are the ultimate dad and I am glad you are mine.

With love from you second daughter,

YingYing

Just only finished work and walked home alone cos I so superwoman don’t need to depend on anyone to walk back with me and was quite scared actually so walked a bit faster than usual. But because I was so exhausted, I then fell down and hurt my knee and the feet area and it started to sting and bleed. Then I did something I never thought I would do.

I wailed loudly, like really; while picking myself up. And all I felt like doing was cry. And run to mummy. But she was so far away and  I really couldn’t. I wanted to cry so much more. Then only I noticed there were a bunch of guys at the side probably laughing at me falling down and then wailing so loud. -_-!!

I did the closest thing to running to mum. I called her. And talked to her until I reached home. Yes because I was afraid of walking alone and also because hearing her voice helped me not cry.She was sleeping already as usual but she talked to me anyway until I got back safely. Mummy’s always the best! Really!

I guess deep inside I’ll always be a four year old believing in mum and dad and knowing that they can comfort me; just by hearing their voice already helps so much. :’)) So here I am, a 22 year old but will always be a four year old in their heart.

Also, I guess it goes more than just hurting externally. It’s more internal;where there would be days when things are just not alright and this is one of those days.

But this too shall pass.

And what’s more amazing is the fact that I also have one big daddy looking after me up above! i heart!

Oh and amazing friends! So amazing okay my housemate Bee waited for me at the door to ensure I am okay! Teehee! So lovely! And then I go and scare her by wailing loudly again when I saw her! Boohoo me!

Okay, now have to clean my wounds. Sigh!

p/s see i’m such a good blogger I blogged first before truly cleaning the wounds! Haahaa! Actually sorry haven’t blogged much lately. So busy! Update soon! Loves!