Carissa Sammy » Random Snippets http://carissasammy.com The Journey begins now Sat, 04 Sep 2010 17:59:46 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 en hourly 1 Do we ever… http://carissasammy.com/life/do-we-ever/ http://carissasammy.com/life/do-we-ever/#comments Tue, 10 Aug 2010 18:10:40 +0000 Carissa Sammy http://carissasammy.com/?p=952 Stop?

I don’t know the answer to that question. Since I’ve been back, I’ve been keeping myself busy in the midst of all the working and exercising(it’s true!) and living. If you’re in my pool of friends whom I update my life with, then you’ll know that I’m in the midst of waiting for something big and having that small little faith doesn’t help much. Still, it is faith after all. It isn’t easy waking up each day wondering what if and waiting for that email to come so that you know that it will be alright. Sometimes I feel like my heart may just stop beating from worrying too much. It scares me to bit that everytime I think about it my innards feel all weird and I feel like I cannot; not anymore. And yet, each day I make it a little more. A little more that teaches me that I can. And so I go on.

Sometimes I wanna run. I put on a mask so that no one will ever know how bad it hurts. Not because I don’t want people to ever find out, but because I don’t know how to explain if anyone ask. Sometimes I cry so much until the tears run dry and my face feels all wrinkly and then I laugh because silly me. Why did I get into all the emotional roller coaster when I could just simply walk away? Now you see, walking away is the simple part. Not walking away however, it takes great effort. Imma make that big effort because I know it’s going to be worth it.

Every other day I meet a new friend. Someone who are so willing to share their life with me despite the fact that I may not be the perfect candidate to throw their heart’s treasure. I feel honoured. And then there are those days when you love so much you try to protect your friends and help them not be broken but you get pushed aside; oblivious to existence. And then you wonder why. And then you get all frozen inside and you feel like you don’t care but that, well that are all lies. Lies you feed yourself because you cannot deal being not wanted. I cannot deal feeling unwanted. Not after investing so so much. Oh not forgetting those who come to you because they need something out of you. You give, over and over again, you give. And then you ask yourself; what’s next?

And that is what I tell myself every brand new day.

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow is a brand new day and I am living.

Tomorrow is a brand new day and I’m not going to stop loving.

Tomorrow is a different day.

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P/s I have to rant a little bit. It’s been a while since I’ve updated but I’m thankful for all you who keep coming back. Blessings for you.

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A Fairy Tale by Amy Lowell
On winter nights beside the nursery fire
We read the fairy tale, while glowing coals
Builded its pictures. There before our eyes
We saw the vaulted hall of traceried stone
Uprear itself, the distant ceiling hung
With pendent stalactites like frozen vines;
And all along the walls at intervals,
Curled upwards into pillars, roses climbed,
And ramped and were confined, and clustered leaves
Divided where there peered a laughing face.
The foliage seemed to rustle in the wind,
A silent murmur, carved in still, gray stone.
High pointed windows pierced the southern wall
Whence proud escutcheons flung prismatic fires
To stain the tessellated marble floor
With pools of red, and quivering green, and blue;
And in the shade beyond the further door,
Its sober squares of black and white were hid
Beneath a restless, shuffling, wide-eyed mob
Of lackeys and retainers come to view
The Christening.
A sudden blare of trumpets, and the throng
About the entrance parted as the guests
Filed singly in with rare and precious gifts.
Our eager fancies noted all they brought,
The glorious, unattainable delights!
But always there was one unbidden guest
Who cursed the child and left it bitterness.
The fire falls asunder, all is changed,
I am no more a child, and what I see
Is not a fairy tale, but life, my life.
The gifts are there, the many pleasant things:
Health, wealth, long-settled friendships, with a name
Which honors all who bear it, and the power
Of making words obedient. This is much;
But overshadowing all is still the curse,
That never shall I be fulfilled by love!
Along the parching highroad of the world
No other soul shall bear mine company.
Always shall I be teased with semblances,
With cruel impostures, which I trust awhile
Then dash to pieces, as a careless boy
Flings a kaleidoscope, which shattering
Strews all the ground about with coloured sherds.
So I behold my visions on the ground
No longer radiant, an ignoble heap
Of broken, dusty glass. And so, unlit,
Even by hope or faith, my dragging steps
Force me forever through the passing days.
]]> http://carissasammy.com/random-moments/a-fairy-tale/feed/ 0 Dreams… http://carissasammy.com/life/dreams-2/ http://carissasammy.com/life/dreams-2/#comments Mon, 14 Jun 2010 08:41:16 +0000 Carissa Sammy http://carissasammy.com/?p=911 sometimes leave me flabbergasted because it’s so surreal! There would be dreams that would leave me feeling so very very happy and plaster a smile on my face for possibly the whole entire week but there would also be dreams that would leave me breathless and sad; especially the ones that I woke up crying still. And there goes my whole day because I am nothing but exhausted and feeling rather low because it all felt too real!

Sometimes I wonder how I can be happier in my dreams than in reality. I mean, one of my happiest day of my life was in the dream I had. How can it be right? Okay in that dream I was married and was pregnant! So happy can?! and my husband loved me so so much lor. I can feel it even when I woke up. The love I mean! -_-!! It’s funny how dreams are formed and such. How some people have it and some just don’t. I am fairly interested with dreams and how we humans can get them. Some say it’s in our head and we think about it so much we dream about it too. But I didn’t think about marrying an older man who’s married before okay! Like that’s the man I got married to and is pregnant with! omg can?! So yeah, intrigue much?

Perhaps I will dream about football now cos keep thinking about it. Or you know, exams result. Sigh! Or moving to a new place. Or Cameron cause I’m going tomorrow! Hohoho! :D

I am so lazy to upload pics into my facebook cos the internet line is so slow like tortoise and I don’t like waiting so so long. :P

I am excited to go Cameron! Cos I think the last time I went there was kazillion years ago and I wana smell the fresh air and eat strawberry ice cream and sip tea like some English people and hang out with people you just love.

Update when I get back! In the mean time, support Portugal! Or else England also can lah. Heehee! :D

XOXO!

]]> http://carissasammy.com/life/dreams-2/feed/ 2 Random Post! :))) http://carissasammy.com/random-moments/random-post/ http://carissasammy.com/random-moments/random-post/#comments Thu, 22 Apr 2010 14:17:32 +0000 Carissa Sammy http://carissasammy.com/?p=849 Fine lah! It’s procrastination! But it’s been a while since I’ve done questions like these and just feel like doing it suddenly! Heheh! :D

ABC QUESTIONS

A- AVAILABLE : uhuh.
B- BIRTHDAY : 18 October 1988
C- CRUSHING ON : no one in particular. eheh.
D- DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Chocolate Milk! Dutch lady! (promote! teehee! :P )
E- EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: closest people to my heart.
F- FAVOURITE SONG : as of now? Chún wényì liànài.. I think that’s the name of the song lah cos it’s in Chinese and my blog don’t advocate chinese words! -_-!!
G- GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : WORMS! :)
H- HOMETOWN : Sweet Ol’ Kuching!
I- IN LOVE WITH : God!
J- JUGGLE : Dunno. Not a clue how to.
K- KILLED SOMEONE : Nopes.
L- LONGEST CAR RIDE : Ermm… Recently? To Penang with the 9lin n Van..
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOUR :  Chocolate or Vanilla.
N- NUMBER OF SIBLINGS :2
O- ONE WISH : Do well in exams! Must must must!
P- PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : Mummy
R- REASON TO SMILE : So much blessings! Counting them one by one :)
S- SONG YOU LAST HEARD : Neh, my current favourite song; Chún wényì liànài
T- TIME YOU WOKE UP : from my nap?! 8.40p.m :P
U- UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: normal. hee!
V- VEGETABLE(S) : I love.
W- WORSE HABITS : procrastinating
X- X-RAYS YOU’VE HAD : don’t remember.
Y- YOYOS ARE : one of my fun childhood memories..
Z- ZODIAC SIGN : libra

Random Questions about you

Spell your name without vowels : crss yng yng smmy
What colour do you wear most: black
Least favourite colour : ermm… white.
What are you listening to? : My fav song…
Are you happy with your life right now? I make do with what I have…
What is your facourite class in school? English! :D :D :D
When do you start back at school/college? wad do u mean? still in college..
Are you outgoing? I’d like to think so.
Favourite shoes? heels. heheh. and flip flops!
Where do you wish you were right now? at the beach with all my favourite people in the world.
Have a thing about insects : hates em’
Honeymoon dream :  cannot think so much. one step at a time. haahaa! :P :P :P

THE CANS

Can you dance? lols. ermm… truth? no.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? cannot lah. not so talented wan.
Can you whistle? oh this one can.
Write with both hands? right hand only!
Walk with your toes curled? can gua…

The DO’s

Do you believe there is life on other planets? No?
Do you believe in miracle? Yes! Definitely!
Do you believe in magic? No. Haahaa!
Love at first sight? Nopes… not at all.
Do you believe in Satan? That it exist? Yes. But he is overcome d.
Do you know how to swim? Yeaps
Do you like roller coasters? Nopes. But is good for stress moments. Teehee!
Do you think you can handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? Maybe?

The HAVE’s

Have you ever been on a plane? Yes..
Have you ever asked someone out? Yes… not in a romantic way though.
Have you ever been asked out  by someone? Yeaps.
Have you ever been to the ocean? Yes!
Have you ever painted your nails? All the time. Hee! Is fav past time!
Have you ever kissed someone? Yes! mummy, daddy, chae chae, lil sis and …

The WHAT’s

What is the temperature outside? Hot!
What radio station do you listen to? If I do listen, it’s Hitz.fm
What was the last restaurant you ate at? Hrmm… Restaurant Choy Kee. Haaahahahah!
What was the last thing you bought? Water! :D
What was the last thing on TV you watched? TV? What is that? haahaa! Haven’t watched one for ages!

The Who’s

Who was the last person you YM’d? eh I msn.. :) :) :) XH..
Who was the last person you took picture of? ermm.. Diana.
Who was the last person you said ‘i love you’ to? Mummy.

CRYING SECTION

Ever really cried your heart out? Yeah.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes.
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder? Yeaps.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? sigh. guilty.
Do you cry when you get an injury? Heehee! I try NOT to. but it depends.
Do certain songs make you cry? Yes.. worship songs mostly.

HAPPY SECTION

Are you a happy person? I’d love to thing so!
Can music make you happy? Oh definitely!
What can make you happy? Ice cream! Pretty shiny thingS!
Do you wish you were happier? I try to keep the joy of the Lord in my heart always always always!

LOVE SECTION

How many times have you had your heart broken? ha ha!
Have you ever had sex? Nopes. I believe it’s for after marriage. Not married yet.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them? Yes.. family and friends who matter to me.
When was your first crush? hrmm.. I think it’s primary 6. lols!

LOOK AT ME

What is your current hair colour? Dark brown.
What is your eye colour? Dark Brown.
Current piercings? five.
Tattoo? Dun have any.

IN A BOY/ GIRL

Favourite eye colour : Anything lah.
Short or long hair : Short. ha ha!
Height : No need to ask also know will be taller than me lorh. :P :P :P which is good! :D
Best clothing : Doesn’t matter much. as long is clean looking.

HAVE YOU EVER

Been to jail : Yes… visited there a few times. It’s creepy.
Mooned someone : huh?!
Laughed so hard you cried : Oh yes! It’s been a while!
Cried in school : Nopes! I’ve always loved school! but cried maybe cos of other things?like feeling sick. heh.
Thrown up in a store : Nopes.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : Oh always. Haahaa! :P
Gone skinny dipping ? Nopes. No guts dude!

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McD or Burger King : McD!
Single or Group Dates : Single..
Chocolate or Vanilla : Both is love.
Strawberries or Blueberries : Strawberries.
Meat or Veggies : Need both for balance meal! :D :D :D
TV or Movie : Doesn’t matter.
Guitar or Drum? : Guitar.
Adidas or Nike : Nike.
Chinese or Mexican : Chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Corn Flakes!
Cake or Pie : Pie. Mummy’s!
MTV or VH1 : Neither.
Nah a picture of me in case you forget how I look like. Yes now my fringe is half half I also dunno what to do with it. And a lot of people say it looks good on me. But they say that about my bangs too and somehow I still don’t like bangs. Teehee!
Alright! Sleep early and study hard you people all around the world! Exams are near! All the best! :D
]]> http://carissasammy.com/random-moments/random-post/feed/ 0 how now brown cow? http://carissasammy.com/random-moments/how-now-brown-cow/ http://carissasammy.com/random-moments/how-now-brown-cow/#comments Sun, 18 Apr 2010 13:04:54 +0000 Carissa Sammy http://carissasammy.com/?p=841

Have you ever felt so confused you don’t know who’s telling the truth and who’s not? And the more you think about it, the more confused you become?

Oh I have. And it’s not a very good feeling at all.

I wish the truth would come out now now now!

How now brown cow?

John 16:13“But when He, the Spirit of truth, comes, He will guide you into all the truth; for He will not speak on His own initiative, but whatever He hears, He will speak; and He will disclose to you what is to come.”

Oh well, let’s study study study to keep yourself busy busy busy and know that time will eventually set truth free!

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