hu die zha ji ci yan jing
cai xue hui fei xing
ye kong sa man le xing xing
dan ji ke hui luo di
wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji
hen kao jing hai ting jian hu xi
dui bu qi wo que mei zhuo jin ni

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
ni de lei di xiang qin peng da yu sui le man di
zai xin li qing xi
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
duo de shi ni bu zhi de shi

hu die zha ji ci yan jing
cai xue hui fei xing
ye kong sa man le xing xing
dan ji ke hui luo di
wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji
hen kao jing hai ting jian hu xi
dui bu qi wo que mei zhuo jin ni

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
ni de lei di xiang qin peng da yu sui le man di
zai xin li qing xi
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
duo de shi ni bu zhi de shi

wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
ni de lei di xiang qin peng da yu sui le man di
zai xin li qing xi
ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
duo de shi ni bu zhi de shi

I just realized as I live through everyday, that sometimes, a small action or word makes a whole huge difference. I mean it’s not like I never noticed before but recently, I’ve just noticed things in a new different perspective okay maybe because I’m on hols and have tons of free time on my hands and I like it.

I see how the little kid helps out his parents at the Kopi Tiam(coffee shop) and not complain about having to help out and comparing his life with other kids who gets to stay home and play playstation.

The old grandmother who walks her grandchild to tuition and waits patiently just because both parents are busy working and yet despite having difficulties walking; does so happily and smiling away listening to the kid’s story of the day.

The aunty at the small shop-house who charge RM1 less just because.

Hannah; who suddenly and randomly told me I look prettier and prettier each day made me blush but more than that, touched deep inside with warm cozy feeling.

9lin who keeps blessing with foodS, awesome company and lots of laughter.

A lady, staying over in another city with a her bestfriend to give her support with the passing of her dad.

Baby Kristen, who stops playing so suddenly and came up to me, puts her head on my lap to show her way of love.

A simple email just to check up and keep in touch.

A hug to show that there will always be someone there.

The old toothless man who gave the utmost genuine smile ever.

And God, who gave His one and only one to die for our sins because of His undying love.

Oh, aren’t these amazing? Who would have thought that we live in a world where there is still so much love going around though in small simple form being a blessing in disguise? These small sparks helps me go on with life with a smile on my face. I hope you too, by reading this can choose to do a little something today and keep the love going round. Then tell me, if you did, so I can picture it in my head and smile along with you.

*****

Here’s a song I hope will bless you

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He’s the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, “Dear God won’t you please
Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would’ve stayed
And she says…

Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
“I know you’ve murdered and I know you’ve lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you’ll listen, I’ll tell you that I…”

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew

Minutes turn to hours, turn to days.
When heartache comes around, to take your place.
Why does it have to stay so long?
Forever seems to be the way for now,
But if I could bring you back to me somehow,
You make it go away, I’m sure.

‘Til then I’ll listen to the rain,
Falling down outside.
I’ll listen to the rain,
Feeling you, inside.

Crying is beautiful, and I remember you.
I surrender to my broken heart,
It’s all that I can do.
Crying is beautiful,
Especially when it rains.
It’s so hard to make it through,
When I remember you.

Oh, Winter turns to Summertime to fall.
Do you ever really think of me,
Are you missing me at all?
Until you let me know,
I’ll be right here.

I’ll listen to the rain,
Falling down outside.
I’ll listen to the rain,
Feeling you, inside.

Crying is beautiful, and I remember you.
I surrender to my broken heart,
It’s all that I can do.
Crying is beautiful,
Especially when it rains.
It’s so hard to make it through,
When I remember you.

Oh I can hear you call my name,
I hear it through the pouring rain.
Like echoes of a distant dream,
Holding onto me.

Crying is beautiful, and I remember you.
I surrender to my broken heart,
It’s all that I can do.
Crying is beautiful,
Especially when it rains.
It’s so hard to make it through,
When I remember,
When I remember,
When I remember you.

Dream Catcher

Had fever Friday all the way to yesterday, the same day I started work and almost did not go to work but went anyway cos cannot afford to give bad impression. Anyhoo, it was bad. It’s been a while since I’ve had fever and such. It doesn’t help that the sore throat, flu and cough complicate my breathing and made my asthma so much worst. A walk to the bathroom made me pant as if I ran a mile or something and sweat started to break out from the skin everywhere. You want to know how it feels? Try holding your breath under water until you can no longer take it but wait for a few more seconds and then get up and you’ll know how it feels to breathe as if air is running out BUT imagine the air sucked in could not be absorbed by the lungs and all you can do is run to the meds for help. The high fever was horrible as well. Wrapped myself in 2 layer of clothes, long pants and blanket, popped in two panadol and try to sweat it all out. Wish I was home where I could be well taken care of without worrying bout such things. Bah!

Anyhoo, worshiped anyway today; with only one guitarist and a pianist and did so much mistakes! I could feel my face go red throughout! Gah! Surrendering to God; I did my best! I truly did! Am glad some people were ministered anyway! God is good!

*****

My new fav song! Thanks to Diana! Hee!

Part of the lyrics

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I’m
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

*****

P/S sometimes I don’t understand why people are not afraid to do it but go all mad when someone else found out about it. Seriously. What’s the catch?

One word.

Own up.

On a lighter note, I think now I know who are those who are real and not. It’s good to know.

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